Do you ever feel Stuck?

     Oh, I must say that today I am a bit discouraged. Ok, maybe a lot discouraged. I have so much confusion and blurry haze surrounding my purpose at the moment. My dilemma is I want a career. I am ready to go out into the world and show it what I have to offer, but at the same time, I have no idea what I want to do. I like being a Reiki healer, but I realize it doesn't exactly come from me. I have talents and gifts to show off to the world but nothing so good as of yet, that could become my niche. I want something to make money off of that I will enjoy. I just don't know what to do or how to get started, even what i'm REALLY interested in doing. The healing would be a good one but there isn't high demand for it, and many people can either Reiki themselves if they have been attuned or go to someone they know already to do it. I tried in Nebraska, because it's not widespread but I got no takers and found out that someone else was in the business and in Nebraska, theres barely any demand at all.
     Everyone tells me not to worry, I will soon figure it out or I should meditate on it, or think about what makes me most passionate. The thing is I've meditated, long and hard. I have a blockage when it comes to figuring this out. I know I don't want a 9-5 job anymore because I need to be able to work at my own pace, and on my own comfort level. *Siiiiigggggghhhhhh*
     I am staying positive about it. I haven't given up yet, and I don't intend to until I find what I really and truly wanted to do, but i'm at the point where I am sick of waiting. I'm ready to move on to a new phase of my life, I can and will succeed when I start whatever it is i'm going to start, because now i've balanced my dream power with physical action. I'm just so restless right now.
     I don't normally ask for outside guidance and often when I do, I end up figuring out the problem on my own anyways. But this time....this time is different. I don't know. I'm just searching for an opportunity, i'm waiting for it too, but nothing ever comes. I'm 25 years old and feel like I want to contribute to society as well my own household. Anyways. Rant over. My Searching continues.